This is just a bump in the road, a little setback. You’ll be back to your old self in no time. Sound familiar? While I appreciated the intention of those trying to support me, these words always fell flat with me during treatments, it wasn’t until at least a year later that I understood why.
There is no going back to normal, this is such a painful realization.
The old version of you simply doesn’t exist anymore. You are who you always were deep down, but it’s been a long time since you’ve connected with her and you’re not even sure who she is or what she wants anymore.
It can be scary letting go of something that no longer exists, the woman you were before children, the woman you were before marriage, before divorce, or before cancer. The cancer that turned everything inside out.
But, to be honest, I was working too hard, I was giving away too much of myself for others and not truly caring for myself. I was too stressed to fully enjoy the life I had built. I wasn’t allowing myself to be present in the moment. And it took its toll on my on my body, my whole being really. I was hurting myself living like that and I needed to stop.
The cancer made me stop.
There was a certain release in not having a choice, to let go, of all of it. Expectations others put on me and expectations I had for myself about how I would be after treatment, how I was going to pick up right where I left off. Everything I thought I was going to do and accomplish, I let go of. How I was going to look and feel, I let go of. What I thought was normal, what I thought I wanted, I let go of.
Once I pushed past the fear of letting go, something beautiful happened.
The more I released, the more room I had. I had more space to only accept back into my life the things I truly wanted and desired now. I choose very carefully how I spend my energy, how I care for myself, who I give my time to and how I work. It’s a promise I’ve made to myself, that I renew daily, I will care for myself so I can show up in my life the way I desire, regardless of the circumstances.
I’d love for you to join me on this journey of remembering, releasing and renewing.
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Sending you love always, Lisa